embracing the night

first it was the position that i sour graped from. the title was a little bit too much for me and i wasnt sure of the compensation. one things for sure though, the directress trusted me with the workload. two days of making pa-cute, they already hired someone for the job. just when i was about to approach the directress and take her offer. bummer. it suddenly dawned to me, i needed the name and i could just imagine where that name could take me after a few cartwheels with the people around me. unfortunately its just a little too late for the epiphany.

and so i define petiks again and whine about needing a project bcz im in dire need of cashiola for an endless list of stuff i need and bills to pay when suddenly a friend seeks my attention. there goes my mobile ringing, sounding its nokia nostalgia tone. i press silence. haha. i dont feel like chit chatting at the moment, im at the mall wandering about. here comes a text from her asking why i wasnt replying to the YM messages, sms, and calls and there goes my finger pressing on the delete button.

and now i just had to type away with these blahs for i have to put myself under theraphy bcz the good ol friend was looking for me to book me for a stint in a two-day weekened event in batangas. good heavens! thats the event i was told about a month before and i would have loved to do the event if it wasnt for my senses that so need some caffeine. i would have done it for a minimal fee but my friend just told me (minutes ago over YM [bcz im online and she is too]) the TF was a little maximal. haha. ok im exaggerating but hey, a no namer host wouldnt get that much TF.

anyhow, i just need to release this burden on my psyche. im close to picking up that HELP WANTED sign i saw along the road.